I’m really starting to feel the heat that’s brought on by the eager gunners that populate my medical class… you know, the ones that look like troll dolls. Last week was shit for me because I had to work, study for an exam, put together a presentation and meet up with a chick at the hospital who just had her baby for another project that they’re making us do. So how did my exam go? Well considering the amount of work I put into it, I shouldn’t be too down on myself. I felt like I didn’t even study for it – instead I spent the last two weeks playing catch up.

I skipped all my lectures and tutorials today because I couldn’t even be bothered to show up and listen to everybody talk about how well they did on the exam. The marks were surprisingly high. On any given day I’m usually near the top, but on this occasion I was knocked off my pedestal… well that’s an understatement… let me rephrase… I was forcefully pushed off my pedestal and landed in a pile of week old dog shit. OK that’s better.

The competition in medical school is fierce. You don’t even get a moment to breathe and you would think that everybody would just relax and enjoy being a part of something that’s amazing, but instead it’s scary how much people study and how much they retain this shit! I believe that there are only two kinds of medical students: smart and smarter. Well 3 if you include the group who sleeps with all the professors to get a “faculty pass”…

If you’re not a competitive person, then I don’t know if you’re going to be able to handle medical school. The competition never stops. You have to compete against your peers for a desirable internship position, you have to compete to get into a specialty training program, and eventually compete for a permanent job as a specialist. It starts well before you enter medical school during the time when you apply and the competition gets tougher as the weak don’t make it through. That’s the reality.

So what am I going to do? I guess I’m just going to try my best and see what happens. I know that’s easier said than done because I’m a highly competitive person. Maybe I’ll sacrifice work for school right now. Sometimes I just want to do it all, but not even Superman can be in two places at once.