I can’t believe another year has gone by. Not certain that I have made it to third year medicine but at this point I’m just happy that I wrote those exams without going through a nervous breakdown. Prior to one of my exams I was reading an online article about Brandon Crisp, the boy who was found dead a month after he ran away over a dispute with his parents regarding his Xbox being taken away as a form of punishment. In some weird and twisted way, knowing that there are other people out there in far worse situations than I am provided me with a place of calm. You see before any exam I get a little stage fright – to the point where I could throw up my morning breakfast in somebody’s face. But surprisingly I’m pretty calm when it’s time to perform.
Throughout this year I’ve noticed that people are secretly competitive. At least I make it known that I’m competitive. I have a habit of constantly comparing myself with others in the class by asking people how they did on exams. Annoying? Perhaps. But I think it’s more annoying when you realise that people who you thought you can trust end up throwing you under the bus just so they can grab that one extra point. You know who you are. I believe that there were certain things you kept to yourself and not shared with the rest of us because you were afraid that you needed every advantage you can get. I see right through it and now I know for the future. Bitter? Perhaps. What’s done is done and the game continues next year.
There is so much more I want to say but can’t because people in my life are beginning to stumble upon this blog. Perhaps it’s about time to start another one?